[ He's not nervous! He's just... a little excited. A little out of his depth, too. Okay, he's nervous. Not that he has reason to, he's sure Finn will say yes to his proposal. Probably. God, what if he doesn't? What if he wants his own space, or this is too soon, or— okay, Kirk, focus. No point in panicking about it now.
He'll just have to figure out what the best time to bring it up is. But not yet, no. ]
No. Just have a seat and I'll bring over the wine and some food.
[ He urges Finn towards the small table, then heads to the kitchenette so he can bring a plate with some nicely decorated slices of toasted bread. He also pours some wine for Finn and himself, taking a seat opposite from Finn. ]
The rest of the food won't be long. Do you like pizza?
[ Finn, obviously, has no idea what's coming. The only time he ever let himself entertain the idea of living with James (on either planet) was that one joke during Halloween that he immediately regretted due to what looked like fear in Jim's eyes. So, needless to say, he's a little curious about the unexpected... nerves?
Is it about his cooking? Is he worried Finn won't like his cooking? Preposterous. And that's far into the thought process as Finn gets before he's presented with something that looks way too amazing to be nervous about. His eyes light up when he sees the toast, and the smile softens while he watches James pour their wine and sit across from him. ]
Love pizza. Haven't had any since the last planet we were on. Is that what you're making? And these things- They looks amazing.
[ He doesn't know if they have some fancy name or something. They just look good, and he reaches for one. ] Can I? [ They're so pretty, he kinda hates to. ]
[ He feels fairly confident about the food, actually, and he beams at Finn when he praises the bread. ]
Yes, of course you can. [ He nudges the plate towards Finn. ] I was inspired by something from Earth, bruschetta. I'm not really sure if this is completely accurate, but it's toasted bread with garlic and some toppings. I got some vegetables and fruit on it.
And yes, I've tried my hand at pizza. Made the dough and everything. It was quite an adventure.
[ Finn examines the treat he picked out and listens to what James has to say about it before taking a bite. From his immediate yet muffled squeal, it seems apparent that he likes it. There's so many things at once! Kinda reminds him of pizza in that regard, actually. ]
These are so good. [ He's going to gain twenty pounds tonight, oh no. He's apparently happy about it since he laughs, though. ] I'm sure it's amazing, too. Sounds like you put a lot of work into this.
[ And there's probably 5% worth of a tease in there, but Finn just looks really grateful about it what with his warm smile. Someone put out so much effort to please him and be in his company. And that someone was James. He's so stupidly happy right now.
Not smiling too big to not take another bite, though. Whatever brushetta is, he likes it. ]
[ Jim tried to choose ingredients that worked nicely together, and he's pleased when it looks like he's hit the nail on the head on that one. Well, either that or Finn is just easy to please, which also isn't exactly a lie. ]
Well, maybe a little. It was worth it, though. I wanted tonight to be special.
[ Not exactly a Christmans dinner, as pizza isn't exactly a traditional dish, but special in a different kind of way.
He helps himself to one of the bruschetta pieces too. ]
I also have gifts for you, by the way. In case that wasn't obvious.
[ Finn is stupidly easy to please. Plus, he has no idea what consists of a traditional Christmas dinner. He's still getting used to calling this time 'Christmas' and not Life Day or Starlight. Needless to say, pizza more than works for him.
He nearly mentions something about the 'special' comment. It is special. It's always special when this whole dynamic is concerned. Still, Finn's smile turns into that dopey, warm thing again, then the subject is changed before he can make that comment.
Mostly because he forgets it rather quickly, his eyes widening a little in delighted surprise. Sure, he figured James would get him something, but that word sounded plural. He already loves the whatever it is. ]
Yeah? Thank you. [ Then he laughs sheepishly. ] I guess I should have waited so we can exchange at the same time.
No, that's fine. I didn't really have a set plan for exchanging gifts. I can give you yours now, while the pizza is finishing up.
[ It should be a few more minutes at least, and even if it's done earlier, he can just turn off the oven and it'll wait there to stay warm. Taking another sip from his wine and finishing his slice of bread, he gets to his feet, makes his way over to the couch and brings back a bag with Finn's two gifts inside. ]
Here. I hope you like them.
[ He certainly hopes the recorded music doesn't turn out to be... too much. ]
[ He gets halfway through another toast thing before Jim comes back, Finn's eyes having stayed on him the entire time. Even though he knew (and had it recently reinforced!) that he was getting a gift, his eyes still light up when he spies the bag.
The first thing he sees when he happily peeks inside is the little device. Before he can blink and figure out what it is, though, his eyes land on the picture. And he gasps, because he's cute like that, before carefully pulling it out. ]
It's us! [ Obviously. But, oh wow, he really really loves it. ] It's beautiful. [ And so well done, as usual. Makes him feel that much better about his own gift to Jim.
Then, after a second, he turns his attention back to the little device and pulls it out of the bag. ] What's this? [ A bit redundant once again as he's already pressing play... ]
[ Jim can't help but laugh at Finn's reaction, particularly the remark. Yes, that is kind of obvious. But that reaction is so damn cute, he can't help the happy little flutter in his chest.
That flutter only grows stronger when Finn takes out the small player. His lips press into a thin line, eyes bright and hands curling nervously on his lap where he sits. He doesn't really answer Finn, and soon he'll hear the song coming from the player, first the slow plucks of guitar strings, then Jim's voice singing a slower cover of the song to go with the melody. ]
[ Finn's head tilts a little as the guitar begins, happy to find that this little thing contains music. There's like a handful of songs he knows, so hearing anything like that is always a delight. But then he hears Jim's voice, and the smile melts away while he listens with a whole new perspective.
It's slow, but as the words flow, his features soften, his smile slowly growing again while he stares at the little player with overwhelming warmth, love, and adoration. Not that he remotely realizes it, as stuck in this moment as he is.
Show me... that you love me, too...
His smile gets wider, and he turns to look at James. To him, it's unclear if that's a confession but it's a hell of a lot closer than he ever thought it could be. (And that conviction is just going to get stronger the more he listens to it.)
The player continues on, but Finn's out of his chair and wrapping his arms around Jim's shoulders before he even knows it. He's practically in his lap, kissing him, and to not make the tears in his eyes terribly obvious while he nuzzles against him.
Then, quietly, just for them- ] Thank you. I love it. So much.
[ That's fine, actually. Jim expects it's not the most obvious of declarations, but he... prefers it like this. Small steps, little gestures to show that he genuinely cares about Finn, that his feelings are reciprocated in some way. Maybe completely. He just needs time to be at ease with that instead of freaking out each time he thinks about it.
He was about to ask Finn if he liked it (he assumes he does), but he doesn't have the time to say much of anything, though. Instead he finds himself suddenly with Finn on his lap, and he lets out a soft laugh, his own arms wrapping tightly around Finn. ]
Well, I'm glad to hear. I mean, I figured you would, [ He chuckles, nuzzling back against Finn's temple. ] There are other songs in there. But you can listen to them later.
I will listen to them later. [ Over and over and over. ] Thank you.
[ Finn presses a kiss to Jim's neck before leaning away just a little, just enough to look at him. He doesn't want to ask about the whole confession thing, certainly doesn't want to overthink it, so he just carefully turns the player off (for the moment) and pecks another kiss to Jim's lips.
He should... probably get off of him. But first- He glances across the table. ]
Can I move my chair closer?
[ It's a very fancy setup, and he loves the obvious effort that had been involved (candles! there are even Candles!), but Finn just wants to be beside him. Across the table suddenly looks very far away. ]
[ Yes, he really should move, and Jim really should go check on that pizza. Or else it's gonna get all burned and ruined and Jim's spent far too long getting that dough just perfect. ]
Oh. Yes, obviously! Let's just— move your dish right over here...
[ He pulls the plate, cutlery and wine glass closer, so that Finn can take up a spot beside him, around the corner of the table but well within reach of one another. ]
And you... should move. So I can go get our pizza.
[ Finn huffs a little laugh, presses another short kiss to the edge of Jim's lips, and finally gets off of him. He happily slides into his seat, holding his player perhaps a bit reverently while pulling his other gift closer, too. The artwork is going to go back in the bag before their food arrives just in case things somehow get messy.
But he looks back up to James. He's the best gift of all, and Finn's the sappiest being on the planet. ]
[ The pizza's ready anyway, so not much to get done right now. He turns off the oven, then takes the rectangle-shaped pizza out, carefully sliding it onto a serving dish and setting the tray back into the oven to cool.
Then he brings it to the table, all nice scent of the seasoning and herbs filling the air as he sets it down in front of them. ]
That looks amazing. [ It's all amazing, and maybe Finn's just too damn excited about everything today, but he really does mean it. Smells amazing, too. ] You did a great job.
[ He doesn't touch it yet, taking heed of Jim's advice. It did just come out of the oven, after all. So he uses the moment to asses James himself.
He seems calmer than before, the nerves dissipated some. Perhaps he was only worried about how his gifts would go over, a sentiment that Finn shares considering his own nerves earlier. So his shoulders relax a little, happy that Jim seems okay again, and his hand finds his on the table. ]
[ He wasn't particularly nervous about the gifts, actually— maybe the songs in that player, to be fair, but then Finn's reaction has soothed that, and then some. He feels much more relaxed now, and very inclined to enjoying their dinner before he brings up the rest. ]
Thank you, too.
[ He squeezes Finn's fingers tightly in his own, beaming brightly at him. ]
I mean, just... for everything. I thought I'd go stir-crazy being here this long, but I'm not. I'm happy, actually, and in great part it's thanks to you.
[ Oh, that- It sits heavy with Finn while making him melt at the same time. That's a large admission to make, he believes, and not something he's going to take lightly. ]
I know how badly you want to go home. [ Well, he has an idea. It's hard to fully understand it since he doesn't have a very good comparison in his own life. ] Knowing that you're happy here, I'm glad. It means a lot.
[ And he's so so happy and kind of honored that he's a had a large hand in Jim's happiness. ]
[ He does want to go home, that's true. Even if his whole crew was here, or all the people he cares about, he'd still want to go home. But meeting Finn has definitely made his resolve waver, and that's both exciting and terrifying, especially when it's all so new to him.
He holds Finn's hand tightly, and leans in to kiss him again, slower and warmer this time, lingering for a while, head dropping to rest on Finn's shoulder once that contact breaks. Words are just there at the tip of his tongue, but he can't force them out, so he shudders instead. ]
Sorry. [ He laughs a little, pulling back and smiling apologetically. ] Guess I'm just a little emotional today.
[ Finn's hand rests on the nape of his neck while he's pressed against him, nuzzling lightly before Jim pulls away. ]
Don't be sorry.
[ Never be sorry for being emotional, of all things. Though, it is a heavy topic, isn't it? Whatever this is that they share on top of how temporary places like this are. But at least he's made James happy in the interim. That's a lot.
He lifts his hand and presses a gentle kiss to the knuckles. ]
That's part of today, right? Being happy and emotional together?
[ Jim chuckles when Finn kisses his knuckles, nodding at the words. ]
Right. Yes, it's partly about that.
[ But that's not really the reason why he's nervous, is it? Anyway, that can definitely wait. Jim leans in for a kiss to Finn's cheek, then he shifts back into his seat properly, scooting the chair forward and closer to the table as he clears his throat. ]
Come on, I'll serve you.
[ He slices the pizza into squares, moving a couple of them onto Finn's plate, then two other onto his own, also helping himself to one of the two last slices of toast. ]
[ Partly? To be fair, Finn doesn't know anything about these holidays beyond the basics. Give gifts, spend time with loved ones, make others happy, etc. That seems to be the common theme.
So he doesn't question it and promptly forgets when food is put in front of him. Less so because of the food and more so because of the gesture, his smile wide and warm because of it.
Instead of saying something that would just be a repeat of himself ("thank you" or "it look amazing" or what have you), Finn tries out his piece. It's still a bit hot which makes him laugh around his mouthful but, hey, it's really good. Instead of talking with his mouthful, he just nods and chews with a big smile. ]
[ It's not like Jim's celebrated Christmas before either, but any holiday that's meant to spend time with loved ones and show his appreciation for them he'll take. Plus, he likes giving gifts, all the more so when he gets a reaction like Finn's.
Jim smiles and chuckles when Finn takes a bite from the pizza and nods approvingly. Good. Well, it did smell great before, so Jim was pretty confident it'd come out alright, but still. With a pleased hum, he takes a bite from one of his slices, eyebrows both raising as he chews and swallows it down. ]
Mm. Better than I thought.
[ Following Finn's lead, he also focuses on eating his meal for now, since there'll be plenty of time for them to talk later. ]
[ There's a little laugh and smile there before Finn goes back to his food. For a guy who apparently didn't know anything about cooking a few months ago, the results are phenomenal. Finn can't help but feel a spark of pride about it.
He tucks into his meal then, and his portions of the pizza are gone before he really knows it. Finn then busies himself with snacking on another piece of James' fancy toast as if it were a dessert, smiling and happy all the while. He steals glances at James occasionally, just... stupidly delighted. Absolutely dumb with it. ]
You did an amazing job. [ He says between bites of his "dessert." ]
[ Jim's always been a fast learner, when it comes to... well, practically anything. Even with no prior knowledge about cooking, mere observation has taught him a lot, and once he had the basics down pat, it was just a matter of learning and following new recipes. ]
I'm glad. I was worried the dough wouldn't come out good, but I followed the recipe to the letter, and it worked pretty well.
[ He's very proud and stupidly delighted about this personal achievement too, for what it's worth. ]
I've also made dessert, but that was actually pretty easy. That one I kind of made up myself.
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He'll just have to figure out what the best time to bring it up is. But not yet, no. ]
No. Just have a seat and I'll bring over the wine and some food.
[ He urges Finn towards the small table, then heads to the kitchenette so he can bring a plate with some nicely decorated slices of toasted bread. He also pours some wine for Finn and himself, taking a seat opposite from Finn. ]
The rest of the food won't be long. Do you like pizza?
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Is it about his cooking? Is he worried Finn won't like his cooking? Preposterous. And that's far into the thought process as Finn gets before he's presented with something that looks way too amazing to be nervous about. His eyes light up when he sees the toast, and the smile softens while he watches James pour their wine and sit across from him. ]
Love pizza. Haven't had any since the last planet we were on. Is that what you're making? And these things- They looks amazing.
[ He doesn't know if they have some fancy name or something. They just look good, and he reaches for one. ] Can I? [ They're so pretty, he kinda hates to. ]
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Yes, of course you can. [ He nudges the plate towards Finn. ] I was inspired by something from Earth, bruschetta. I'm not really sure if this is completely accurate, but it's toasted bread with garlic and some toppings. I got some vegetables and fruit on it.
And yes, I've tried my hand at pizza. Made the dough and everything. It was quite an adventure.
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These are so good. [ He's going to gain twenty pounds tonight, oh no. He's apparently happy about it since he laughs, though. ] I'm sure it's amazing, too. Sounds like you put a lot of work into this.
[ And there's probably 5% worth of a tease in there, but Finn just looks really grateful about it what with his warm smile. Someone put out so much effort to please him and be in his company. And that someone was James. He's so stupidly happy right now.
Not smiling too big to not take another bite, though. Whatever brushetta is, he likes it. ]
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Well, maybe a little. It was worth it, though. I wanted tonight to be special.
[ Not exactly a Christmans dinner, as pizza isn't exactly a traditional dish, but special in a different kind of way.
He helps himself to one of the bruschetta pieces too. ]
I also have gifts for you, by the way. In case that wasn't obvious.
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He nearly mentions something about the 'special' comment. It is special. It's always special when this whole dynamic is concerned. Still, Finn's smile turns into that dopey, warm thing again, then the subject is changed before he can make that comment.
Mostly because he forgets it rather quickly, his eyes widening a little in delighted surprise. Sure, he figured James would get him something, but that word sounded plural. He already loves the whatever it is. ]
Yeah? Thank you. [ Then he laughs sheepishly. ] I guess I should have waited so we can exchange at the same time.
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[ It should be a few more minutes at least, and even if it's done earlier, he can just turn off the oven and it'll wait there to stay warm. Taking another sip from his wine and finishing his slice of bread, he gets to his feet, makes his way over to the couch and brings back a bag with Finn's two gifts inside. ]
Here. I hope you like them.
[ He certainly hopes the recorded music doesn't turn out to be... too much. ]
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The first thing he sees when he happily peeks inside is the little device. Before he can blink and figure out what it is, though, his eyes land on the picture. And he gasps, because he's cute like that, before carefully pulling it out. ]
It's us! [ Obviously. But, oh wow, he really really loves it. ] It's beautiful. [ And so well done, as usual. Makes him feel that much better about his own gift to Jim.
Then, after a second, he turns his attention back to the little device and pulls it out of the bag. ] What's this? [ A bit redundant once again as he's already pressing play... ]
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That flutter only grows stronger when Finn takes out the small player. His lips press into a thin line, eyes bright and hands curling nervously on his lap where he sits. He doesn't really answer Finn, and soon he'll hear the song coming from the player, first the slow plucks of guitar strings, then Jim's voice singing a slower cover of the song to go with the melody. ]
and he's NOT supposed to cry???
It's slow, but as the words flow, his features soften, his smile slowly growing again while he stares at the little player with overwhelming warmth, love, and adoration. Not that he remotely realizes it, as stuck in this moment as he is.
Show me... that you love me, too...
His smile gets wider, and he turns to look at James. To him, it's unclear if that's a confession but it's a hell of a lot closer than he ever thought it could be. (And that conviction is just going to get stronger the more he listens to it.)
The player continues on, but Finn's out of his chair and wrapping his arms around Jim's shoulders before he even knows it. He's practically in his lap, kissing him, and to not make the tears in his eyes terribly obvious while he nuzzles against him.
Then, quietly, just for them- ] Thank you. I love it. So much.
smfklsdkfl FINN
He was about to ask Finn if he liked it (he assumes he does), but he doesn't have the time to say much of anything, though. Instead he finds himself suddenly with Finn on his lap, and he lets out a soft laugh, his own arms wrapping tightly around Finn. ]
Well, I'm glad to hear. I mean, I figured you would, [ He chuckles, nuzzling back against Finn's temple. ] There are other songs in there. But you can listen to them later.
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[ Finn presses a kiss to Jim's neck before leaning away just a little, just enough to look at him. He doesn't want to ask about the whole confession thing, certainly doesn't want to overthink it, so he just carefully turns the player off (for the moment) and pecks another kiss to Jim's lips.
He should... probably get off of him. But first- He glances across the table. ]
Can I move my chair closer?
[ It's a very fancy setup, and he loves the obvious effort that had been involved (candles! there are even Candles!), but Finn just wants to be beside him. Across the table suddenly looks very far away. ]
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Oh. Yes, obviously! Let's just— move your dish right over here...
[ He pulls the plate, cutlery and wine glass closer, so that Finn can take up a spot beside him, around the corner of the table but well within reach of one another. ]
And you... should move. So I can go get our pizza.
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But he looks back up to James. He's the best gift of all, and Finn's the sappiest being on the planet. ]
I'm still willing to help if you need it.
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[ The pizza's ready anyway, so not much to get done right now. He turns off the oven, then takes the rectangle-shaped pizza out, carefully sliding it onto a serving dish and setting the tray back into the oven to cool.
Then he brings it to the table, all nice scent of the seasoning and herbs filling the air as he sets it down in front of them. ]
We should probably let it cool a little.
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[ He doesn't touch it yet, taking heed of Jim's advice. It did just come out of the oven, after all. So he uses the moment to asses James himself.
He seems calmer than before, the nerves dissipated some. Perhaps he was only worried about how his gifts would go over, a sentiment that Finn shares considering his own nerves earlier. So his shoulders relax a little, happy that Jim seems okay again, and his hand finds his on the table. ]
Thanks for today.
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Thank you, too.
[ He squeezes Finn's fingers tightly in his own, beaming brightly at him. ]
I mean, just... for everything. I thought I'd go stir-crazy being here this long, but I'm not. I'm happy, actually, and in great part it's thanks to you.
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I know how badly you want to go home. [ Well, he has an idea. It's hard to fully understand it since he doesn't have a very good comparison in his own life. ] Knowing that you're happy here, I'm glad. It means a lot.
[ And he's so so happy and kind of honored that he's a had a large hand in Jim's happiness. ]
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He holds Finn's hand tightly, and leans in to kiss him again, slower and warmer this time, lingering for a while, head dropping to rest on Finn's shoulder once that contact breaks. Words are just there at the tip of his tongue, but he can't force them out, so he shudders instead. ]
Sorry. [ He laughs a little, pulling back and smiling apologetically. ] Guess I'm just a little emotional today.
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Don't be sorry.
[ Never be sorry for being emotional, of all things. Though, it is a heavy topic, isn't it? Whatever this is that they share on top of how temporary places like this are. But at least he's made James happy in the interim. That's a lot.
He lifts his hand and presses a gentle kiss to the knuckles. ]
That's part of today, right? Being happy and emotional together?
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Right. Yes, it's partly about that.
[ But that's not really the reason why he's nervous, is it? Anyway, that can definitely wait. Jim leans in for a kiss to Finn's cheek, then he shifts back into his seat properly, scooting the chair forward and closer to the table as he clears his throat. ]
Come on, I'll serve you.
[ He slices the pizza into squares, moving a couple of them onto Finn's plate, then two other onto his own, also helping himself to one of the two last slices of toast. ]
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So he doesn't question it and promptly forgets when food is put in front of him. Less so because of the food and more so because of the gesture, his smile wide and warm because of it.
Instead of saying something that would just be a repeat of himself ("thank you" or "it look amazing" or what have you), Finn tries out his piece. It's still a bit hot which makes him laugh around his mouthful but, hey, it's really good. Instead of talking with his mouthful, he just nods and chews with a big smile. ]
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Jim smiles and chuckles when Finn takes a bite from the pizza and nods approvingly. Good. Well, it did smell great before, so Jim was pretty confident it'd come out alright, but still. With a pleased hum, he takes a bite from one of his slices, eyebrows both raising as he chews and swallows it down. ]
Mm. Better than I thought.
[ Following Finn's lead, he also focuses on eating his meal for now, since there'll be plenty of time for them to talk later. ]
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[ There's a little laugh and smile there before Finn goes back to his food. For a guy who apparently didn't know anything about cooking a few months ago, the results are phenomenal. Finn can't help but feel a spark of pride about it.
He tucks into his meal then, and his portions of the pizza are gone before he really knows it. Finn then busies himself with snacking on another piece of James' fancy toast as if it were a dessert, smiling and happy all the while. He steals glances at James occasionally, just... stupidly delighted. Absolutely dumb with it. ]
You did an amazing job. [ He says between bites of his "dessert." ]
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I'm glad. I was worried the dough wouldn't come out good, but I followed the recipe to the letter, and it worked pretty well.
[ He's very proud and stupidly delighted about this personal achievement too, for what it's worth. ]
I've also made dessert, but that was actually pretty easy. That one I kind of made up myself.
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