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[ Well, this is a relationship, and Jim happened to be the one to suggest giving it a try to begin with. Granted, at the time Finn clearly had more feelings for him than the other way around, but that doesn't change the fact that it's a relationship, and for him that means some give and take. Not just because he feels like he has to, but because he wants to, and he likes to make Finn happy. It makes him happy too, in turn.

Right now, he could probably just melt into that kiss, get lost in the warmth that practically engulfs him when Finn's close to him like this. And when he tells him again that he loves him, Jim knows it's the time— it's the right time, the perfect time to just... say it back.

Except in a second that perfect time is gone, and he feels scared all over again. Instead he curls his arms tightly around Finn's neck, practically clinging to him as he buries his face in his neck. ]

[ The mood shifts, Finn senses. Like James was nervous all over again as he ducked his head and hugged him close. But, Finn supposed, this is scary. He is pretty nervous about such a big change, worried he'd screw it up in the first six hours.

James, though, has nothing to be afraid of.

Finn rubs his hands over his back, nuzzling against his jaw. A large part of him wants to thank him just for caring but he isn't sure that's the correct thing to say. Well, maybe silence is better.

So he rubs over his back and ducks his head, too, just enough that James can feel his smile, feel how happy he's made him tonight. His own gift, in comparison, doesn't quite square up. He'll have to think up some extra gifts to at least meet half of this. Instead of feeling guilty about it, he only finds himself excited to give James more, as much as he can. ]

[ Honestly, Jim just feels like a coward right now. It's not that he feels pressured to return the confession each time Finn says it, because he doesn't. If anything, Finn's made him feel incredibly warm and happy each time he's told him he loves him, and never once has he pressured him into sorting through his own feelings and saying them out loud.

But he does want to say it. He wants to let Finn now how much his feelings are returned, but the closest he's managed so far was those stupid songs, and he kind of feels stupid for it, not even capable of voicing his feelings like an adult. On the one hand, he wants to make sure that he's ready, that he's there, but on the other he wonders how much of his hesitance is just plain fear because he's never had to deal with anything like this. He also doesn't want Finn to just get tired of expressing his feelings into a void that will give nothing back and eventually leave, but he doesn't want that to be the reason why he pushes himself to open up.

God, just thinking about it makes his head hurt. He's complicating things, he's sure. Finn's so wonderful, though, holding him like this, comforting him even when he doesn't have a clue of what's upsetting him.

It's not long before he's smiling too, shifting his head to press a few kisses to Finn's jaw and cheek, finally pulling back so he can kiss him on the lips proper. ]

I planned for some dancing after our dinner, but... if you want, we can just skip to the bath. And maybe we can pick a fun square to tick off together?

[ Not that Jim needs that to want to have sex with Finn, but he's found the cards pretty inspiring at times. They could do something new and different, and maybe it'll help Jim stop worrying about everything else for now. ]

[ If Jim were a void, then Finn would still happily tell him that he loved him everyday without ever considering leaving. But that's not what James is. He gives Finn so much affection, he sometimes feels like he's drowning in it, like he can't possibly hope to give nearly as much back, like he just isn't good enough to be able to. He doesn't know if it's love, can't even speculate about that, but he knows that James cares. It's in actions, not words.

He finds himself relieved when James pulls away with a smile, apparently reassured. Finn feels a strike of something warm, knowing he can comfort him. ]

That sounds wonderful. [ His arms are still around Jim, keeping them close for now. That warmth in his chest only grows. ] Don't get the wrong idea, though. I love dancing with you. But a bath sounds amazing.

[ Jim can't help but chuckle at that. It doesn't matter what Jim thinks of, what he plans or what he suggests out of nowhere, Finn always seems to think that it's all wonderful and perfect. He nods and moves his hands to cup Finn's cheeks instead, kissing him slower and warmer now, lingering for a good while before pulling away. ]

Good. Let me just get the bathroom ready and then we can climb in. Get your clothes off in the meantime.

[ One more kiss and then he pulls away, going into the bathroom and suspiciously closes the door behind him, the sound of running water coming next. He doesn't want Finn so much as getting a glimpse of the bathroom as he lights all the candles, then sprinkles some of the rose petals on the bath water, which he also adds a bit of shower gel to so it bubbles up.

Once the water's getting on a decent level, he takes his own clothes off, then opens the door just a bit, waiting for Finn to come in. ]

[ The only thing Finn ever wants to do with Jim is spend time with him, watching him smile and be happy. That's the baseline, anyway. Maybe there are preferences here and there, but there's yet to be a suggestion that Finn even considered saying no to.

He melts into the kiss, but it ends far too early for him to really become a puddle about it. Still, he seems happy enough to take a few orders and allows James to escape the grip of his arms.

The closed door doesn't even set off any bells in his head as he simply undresses (he understands if Jim wants a second to himself after that). Most of his attention is actually on the bed, less about the activities that's likely to happen later and way way way more about how it's been decorated. Rose petals on a bed. James really did so much, wanted tonight to be wonderful all for Finn.

He knows if he thinks about it too long, gets really lost in his thoughts about how cared for he is and how he never dreamed in all his life that he could have this, he'll just start crying. So he blinks a few times, breathes, and focuses on removing his clothes.

He finishes just as the door opens again, and he smiles to James before walking inside... then stops... and smiles wide again. Dammit, he's sure to tear up before the night's over at this rate. But for now, there's no words that he can think of that aren't nonsensical, repetitive, or just plain dumb. So Finn turns around, gets his arms around James' neck, and kisses him deeply again. As deep as he can with his dumb smile. ]

[ At least this much Jim isn't nervous about. He knows Finn will enjoy what he's put together for him, even if the decoration might be a little cheesy and over the top. Finn always seems to appreciate the kinds of romantic gestures that Jim enjoys too.

So his smile widens as he watches Finn take in the decoration, then he grins and chuckles once he turns around to kiss him. His arms wind around Finn's shoulders, and he presses back into the kiss, which is brief and light considering that they're both grinning like idiots right now. ]

Come on. Let's get into the tub.

[ He pulls back and takes Finn's hand, stepping closer to the tub. The water's still running, but he steps in anyway, letting out a soft gasp as he touches the surface with his toes. ]

Oh, it's hot. Okay, [ He takes a breath, then steps inside. Hot is good, he reminds himself. It'll take longer for it to get cold and uncomfortable. Although to be fair, they can just keep filling it up if they need to.

Once he sits on one end of the tub, he turns off the tap and gently tugs on Finn's hand so he'll join him. ]

[ Finn stifles a laugh when James is surprised at the temperature of the water he himself drew up. He watches his lover settle before obeying the tug and stepping in- Oh yeah, that is hot. He shivers once he's got a foot inside, but the rest of him is quick to follow.

It's so hot that his body almost thinks it's too cold once he sits down, but it slowly starts to seep in and he sighs as he finally relaxes. Then, promptly, he leans into Jim. ]

This is perfect. [ This. Tonight. All of it. Finn's hand stays in his, threading their fingers together. ] What made you think to plan this part, too?

[ They do spend a lot of time in the shower together. And there was that whole mermaid thing, too. And that time in the public bathhouse, but James doesn't remember that bit. But whatever the reason was for him to plan out bath time, Finn loves it. It's definitely cheesy, super romantic, and makes him feel cared for. Loved, even. ]

[ Look, it felt less hot on his hand, okay? Anyway, it's easy enough to get used to it, and once Finn is in the water he splashes just a bit of water at him, chuckling as a rose petal gets stuck to his collarbone. Plucking that out, he leans in for a quick peck. ]

I don't know. I just wanted tonight to be special in other ways, [ He shrugs. ] The bath wasn't like something I was determined to do, it was more a spur of the moment as I was doing the bedroom. Thought I'd do something nice with it too.

[ Finn splashes a little water at him, too, even though he's leaning against him awfully close. It's a fun, lazy little retaliation, and he does like the look of rose petals on his skin. He's slower to pluck those away than James had been. ]

Well, I love it. We do spend a lot of quality time in showers and baths. [ Mostly on Prismatic but they still do. Actually- He glances up from his chest to meet his eyes. ] I told you about the time we had sex in a public bath, right?

[ It's not a full-on water fight, nor is it meant to be. Jim's not planning on making a mess of the bathroom, so he just yelps a little and laughs, not minding the petals that end up to his shoulders. ]

Mm, yeah, you've told me about that one, [ He chuckles as he remembers the story. ] The one where someone kind of probably walked in on us. Very... shameless of you, I was impressed. We should do that again sometime.

[ There are public baths here, after all. Jim's definitely up for a repeat, even if it'll be a new memory for him. ]

[ Hey, he was perfectly intent to be good until someone started teasing. Then it was fair play. But anyway, Finn's smile gets wider as he plucks another rose petal from Jim's chest. ]

Yeah? We were starting to get in a little public indecency. I think I'd be very willing to continue that, so going to another bath house sounds fun.

[ For Finn, it's not really about... repeating things. Yes, he'd be overjoyed if James remembered their time back then, but it's not really that important, not in this context. He's all about making new memories, and going again just sounds genuinely fun. ]

I don't think public indecency will be as much of an issue around here, to be fair.

[ After all, plenty of people get busy on all kinds of places, here. he himself has had a number of sexual encounters in all too public places, and the bath house hasn't even been the most inappropriately public of all of them. ]

That's settled, then. We'll go there one day. But for now, you get to have this private spa treatment...

[ He reaches out to start running his fingers through Finn's hair, fingertips rubbing gently against the scalp in a slow massage. ]

[ Finn's already looking forward to their day at the bath house, and he was about to say something about the whole thing before being so wonderfully interrupted. With James' hand on his scalp and this water warming him to the core, Finn hums and lets his eyes close, melting into the touch. ]

Private spa. I like the sound of that. [ His hands find Jim's torso beneath the water, running up to his chest and one over his neck. It's like he's massaging at the shoulder, but it's partly a need for contact and an excuse to move closer. ]

[ It's not really a proper spa, nor has Jim gathered the supplies needed for it, but a scalp, neck and shoulder massage he can definitely manage.

He smiles softly at the way Finn practically melts into the touch, and he slips in closer, allowing Finn easier access to his own back and shoulders. His fingers work their way through Finn's hair, running from his temples to his nape, then back up to scratch along the spots behind his ears. ]

[ Something about the way Jim moves is apparently ticklish, since Finn starts to giggle. His shoulders hunch up for a second before he relaxes again, swaying against James and resting with a smile on his face now.

However, his eyes do open to watch his hands move along either side of Jim's neck, slightly into his hair. Could it really be called a massage? All he's doing is touching him. Constantly. What he's always wanted, really. ]

You're beautiful... Have I said that yet today?

[ Does it really matter what they're calling it? No, not particularly. They're touching each other, and they're enjoying it. That's all that truly matters in the end.

He chuckles softly when Finn speaks, opening his eyes again, nails dragging gently down to his nape, then along his shoulders. ]

Mm, maybe not today... but I don't mind hearing it more than once, anyway.

Good.

[ Really fortunate, because Finn doesn't really keep up. Honestly, he worries that he says things like that too often, that James will soon get enough of his shmoopy nonsense, but that's yet to happen.

The word is little more than a hum before Finn drifts closer again. This time, his arms wrap around Jim's neck, finally putting them as close as Finn prefers. Skin to skin.

He doesn't bother getting overly physical yet, though. Finn's still relaxing into the touches, his hand still massaging at Jim's scalp and increasingly wet hair. No, not a massage, but he's into this touching thing. ]

[ Jim can't imagine ever getting tired of it. It's not like he hasn't gotten praise often before, because he has, but when it comes from Finn, it's just different. He likes to hear him say these things over and over, all the more so when time and again Finn never demands anything from him.

That's what makes him feel comfortable, and safe. Knowing that he can take his time, that he can follow his own pace as he gets used to this. Knowing that Finn won't just push him, or get to a point where he'll just get tired and leave.

Not that that's on his mind right now. At the moment he's just enjoying this time together, this little peaceful moment between them. He shifts a little and rests his hands on Finn's sides, holding him as close as he can manage too, pressing a few slow kisses to his shoulder and neck. ]

[ Finn hums again, worries about James someday rejecting him not remotely in his head right now. He's too focused on the kisses against his skin and how he shivers despite all of the warm water in the tub with them.

He arches his head back, offering more of his neck for James to do with as he pleases. His eyes have fallen closed, a sigh leaving his lips, while his hands make a slight mess of Jim's hair. He's not exactly watching what he's doing, just threading his fingers through his hair and enjoying this moment. ]

[ Jim chuckles against Finn's skin, feeling the fingers making a mess of his hair. He blindly reaches for whatever's near he can use, and finds a sponge, which he dips in the water and then lifts up to squeeze over Finn's head, pouring water down on him. ]

[ A little squeak leaves him, his shoulders scrunching up, before he starts giggling. He didn't mean to mess up his hair.

But that's okay, he does similar with a big, quick scoop of his hands over Jim's head. Only, his had some roses mixed in, and he's laughing again at the sight. It's not that funny, James soaking wet with petals in his hair, but he's happy enough to make it funny. ]

[ Jim starts laughing at first, but then he sucks in a deep breath when he realizes Finn's about to do the same thing to him. His head tips back too, letting the water wash down his head, hair slicked back and head and shoulders sprinkled with petals all over.

He straightens up and brushes the water away from his eyes, laughing as he looks at Finn again. ]

Are we even now?

[ He laughs while his arms twines around Jim's neck. ] Yeah, we're even. [ Until one of them does something else.

But he doesn't wait for Jim to get the upper hand, if that's his plan. No, he ducks his head and leans in for a deep, slow kiss. ]

[ Jim's laughter subsides into chuckles, and his eyelids lower, his smile softens. His head falls back slightly, a soft purr pushing past his lips, and when Finn leans in for that kiss, he's all too happy to meet him halfway, arms winding tightly around Finn's neck. ]

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