You're not stupid. [ Finn inched closer to get an arm around her. ] You're not stupid. You value what he did because of him. That's not a dumb feeling to have. I know you feel bad about it, but objects can be fixed. We can fix them if you want to.
And if he comes back all mad because of it, you can just yell at him for leaving and you'll be even, okay?
I can't do that! It wasn't even his fault, it's this, that--the stupid machine, you know? [she manages to push some resentment out in her huff even as she shrinks miserably under the weight of Finn's steadying arm.]
Who goes around breaking nice things the moment they're left alone, anyway?! Stupid, petty children, that's who. Except I never did that the other times I was given nice things and left alone.
[she gulps, needing a few breaths.]
I hate it. I hate it so much I just wanted to scream and not stop, okay? People just...people give me the, the nicest, most undeservedly nice things, and then... poof. Never come back. I'm so sick to death of it! How am I supposed to sleep in a nice room knowing whomever made it is just, just gone, and-and has apparently forgotten all about ever doing it!
[she gives Finn a wide-eyed, despairing look.] Did you know that! People go back and they forget this ever happened! Like! Okay! So what's even the point at all?!
Yeah, I know. [ The answer is quiet, muttered, but he doesn't want to get into that right now. ]
The point's to be happy in the moment and keep the memories after for you both. You broke things because you care Cecelia, because you care about him more than what he left you. That's okay. You're okay.
Sometimes, that's just the only way to get by. You get through today and tomorrow and keep going no matter what, no matter what you need to tell yourself. But that doesn't mean it's not true.
The memory hurts because it was good. In time, when the pain fades, you'll still have that good part.
[ Finn's only ever lived for the moment, tried to push emotions aside just to keep moving. It's only in recent times that he's learning a different way, and he doesn't totally get it so far. ]
But it hurts right now. I know. Things can be fixed, though. Just because you broke some of it doesn't mean that his care wasn't still put into it for you. He'd understand, I think. [ Finn doesn't know him but... probably. ]
[Finn's right. and the worst thing about that is Cecelia knows it, and it doesn't make her feel any better! in fact, it just makes her heart ache more, makes her eyes well up again.
miserably:] I...I can't go back there. Finn, I don't think I could stand it. Not right now!
[she latches on, making a few squeaky, muffled sounds. honestly, it'd figure that Finn would poof into the ether as well right now, but if he has even the barest inkling of it, she'll set the whole place on fire ok!!!
or maybe just cry more. whatever. different means to the same end!
somewhat muffled still:] I didn't bring anything though...
That's okay. You can send someone to go back for your things if you want, or you can borrow whatever I've got. I don't know if you'd want to. I mean, I'm a gross boy, right?
[ He wants to keep asking follow-up questions, make sure everything's okay, but she did just list noise as a problem. So Finn stays quiet and just sits close. ]
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You're not stupid. [ Finn inched closer to get an arm around her. ] You're not stupid. You value what he did because of him. That's not a dumb feeling to have. I know you feel bad about it, but objects can be fixed. We can fix them if you want to.
And if he comes back all mad because of it, you can just yell at him for leaving and you'll be even, okay?
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Who goes around breaking nice things the moment they're left alone, anyway?! Stupid, petty children, that's who. Except I never did that the other times I was given nice things and left alone.
[she gulps, needing a few breaths.]
I hate it. I hate it so much I just wanted to scream and not stop, okay? People just...people give me the, the nicest, most undeservedly nice things, and then... poof. Never come back. I'm so sick to death of it! How am I supposed to sleep in a nice room knowing whomever made it is just, just gone, and-and has apparently forgotten all about ever doing it!
[she gives Finn a wide-eyed, despairing look.] Did you know that! People go back and they forget this ever happened! Like! Okay! So what's even the point at all?!
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The point's to be happy in the moment and keep the memories after for you both. You broke things because you care Cecelia, because you care about him more than what he left you. That's okay. You're okay.
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That sort of thing...sounds better in fiction than practice, Finn. [lonely sentiments hurt less when it's make-believe.]
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Sometimes, that's just the only way to get by. You get through today and tomorrow and keep going no matter what, no matter what you need to tell yourself. But that doesn't mean it's not true.
The memory hurts because it was good. In time, when the pain fades, you'll still have that good part.
[ Finn's only ever lived for the moment, tried to push emotions aside just to keep moving. It's only in recent times that he's learning a different way, and he doesn't totally get it so far. ]
But it hurts right now. I know. Things can be fixed, though. Just because you broke some of it doesn't mean that his care wasn't still put into it for you. He'd understand, I think. [ Finn doesn't know him but... probably. ]
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miserably:] I...I can't go back there. Finn, I don't think I could stand it. Not right now!
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That's okay. You don't have to right now. If you want, you can stay here for however long you need. Poe won't mind.
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or maybe just cry more. whatever. different means to the same end!
somewhat muffled still:] I didn't bring anything though...
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[ Trying to make her smile? Failing? ]
We can buy you new things? [ Helping? ]
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O-okay. I still have. Money, I think.
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Not...not right now, no. All the people and...noise. [she rubs her forehead.] No, just. Let me stay here for a bit? Sorry. I'll lie low.
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[ He wants to keep asking follow-up questions, make sure everything's okay, but she did just list noise as a problem. So Finn stays quiet and just sits close. ]